Chaos in 2.

Sex on a stick at the Sex Museum. Suck on my Lolliop?

My hood.

New York Fuckin City.

Bring on the madness.

Not so PG Coffee Table book.

Genius collaboration with Keith Haring.

Gearing up for the chaos. Olympics of fashion. Run walking constantly. Charge your mind, charge your body, charge your camera. Eat a burger for the models, they're hungry. Glamazons in the concrete jungle. Coffee and cigarettes. Take notes, take deep breathes, take over. Outfits check. Redbull check. Visine check. Cigarettes check.check.check. Camera check. Check mate.

Men in White Coats are coming..

It may be sunny, but you're still shady.

Summer time and the living is easy. 

We drink we smoke we lay.

 Not a care in the world, not a cloud in the sky.

 Summer romance or a summer affair. 

Close your eyes listen to the music. 

You may be bad but so am I.

 Reach for the stars, baby let's fly. 

To the moon and back.

 Until we land in the sand. 

I'll look away, every time you grab my hand.

 Keep away baby just run. 

Lapse in judgment, but no shortage of fun. 

It's summer when cares are gone. 

And it may be sunny, but you're still shady.

Summertime Sadness

We got that summertime sadness

 Laying on the beach beside me

 Our shades cover ours eyes 

So the rest of the dwellers can't see

Sun-kissed skin, cheeks red from the rays 

Don't know when we'll meet again

 You know I'll miss your ways 

Stoned and stressed

 Sand beneath my toes 

Here's to you kid, the BEST

 We stood the test of time 

Hand in hand 

I want to stay in the ocean forever 

Don't even try and drag me 

I can't stand the land

We Struggle. We Succeed.

For those of you who have struggled, may you know success. 

We have been to the depths, the darkness, but we deserve the light.

I see it now. I know it now, and I'm driven.

Willing to do whatever it takes to succeed, sacrificing anything I need to.

Hungrier than ever to taste it. 

Devoting 24 hours a day, 365 days a year to be the best.

Millionaires know it, I want to know it.

So I'm going to study, I'm going to write, I'm going to be great.

Feel greatness within and chase it.

Chase who you are meant to be.

The person you are meant to become.

The most creative visionaries in the world are devoted.

Devoted to the craft, devoted to being great.

Tom Ford works 24 hours a day, "I never stop working."

Eat, breathe, dream it. Most of all believe it to be true.

I have struggled.

I will succeed.

So today I say goodbye to my past way living, if you want to call it that, "living."

Goodbye to wanting it without action. 

Of dreaming it, but only when I'm sleeping.

Suit up and show up.

Eric Thomas the Hip Hop preacher says it best, "No days off, no half days, no cheat days, no holidays."

Goodbye to partying, to sleeping in, to weekends, to "fitting in."

Marc Jacobs became sober because it  was " affecting my creative process."

Give up everything for your craft, and apologize to no one. 

When I get to New York I will be ready.

Ready to struggle, to feel pain, to want to give up, to fight.

When I start to struggle I'll know I'm getting closer.

Closer to Success.

"When I get on my yacht, or my private jet than I'll party. I'll step on my jet and I'll be drunk. Intoxicated with success." - Eric Thomas

You'll think of me...

You may not know me, or you may not know me anymore. 

When you see a smile that never stops, you'll think of me. 

You'll think of me when your laughs fade and the lonely eve sets in. 

You'll think of me when the high comes down and the emptiness can no longer be numbed. 

 You'll think of me. 

You may not know me, but you will. 

 I am the unnerving strength that cannot be broken. 

I am the friend who will stand by you even when you are wrong.

 I am the woman who has been broken, and pieced together, and loved, and broken again. 

I am the eyes that see right through you. 

I am the eyes that turn a bright green when tears fill them. 

I am the obstacle hurdler. 

I am the dreamer who dreams bigger then you can fathom.

 I am the dreamer who makes the dream reality. 

I am the ultimate optimist. 

I am the sarcastic, the sexual, the not so sugar coated son of a gun. 

I am the loudness you hear on the other side of the wall. 

I am the hopeless romantic.

I am the definition of pisces. 

 I am your past. 

I am the future.

Cleaning out my Closet

Cleaning out my wardrobe is so therapeutic. It Signifies a reinvention of self. The start of something new. Embracing change and discarding the past. Past hurts and ego slights be gone. New outfits, new memories. So many of my wardrobe pieces tell a story. Some sad, some happy, some I wish I could remember. One of those "morning after the night before" moments. I'll miss them as I'll miss you. But just like you they no longer serve a purpose for me. They are torn, some faded, some broken, some just no longer in season. And some were just fads, a phase and moment in time when we thought they were the most important piece to have, because everyone was doing it. As we look back at how ridiculous they really were, and what a terrible mistake it was, we wish we could return it. Forget about it, shove it in the bottom of our closet of memories. When it's time to fill our closets with all things beautiful we will head to the nearest Barney's, Bloomingdales, or Holts, and search. We will pick ourselves up and re-build. Rebuild our wardrobes and re-build our hearts. Reinvent ourselves, into the ever changing, ever growing woman we are becoming. 

And when you see us on the street you'll think to yourself: How did I let myself lose someone so beautiful, so strong, and so sure of herself. 

The answer: You never had her in the first place. 

 "Pour yourself a drink, put on some lipstick, and pull yourself together." 

- Elizabeth Taylor